"Denied scans and testing"

 I was certain I was having a miscarriage. I knew I was pregnant, I had taken 3 tests, all positive. My period had stopped, I’d told my boyfriend etc. then I started getting bad pains- after the accident when he had hit the car in front of him, my knees which were on the glove box at the time had hit hard into my abdomen. And I had felt nauseous. A couple of days later I had awful pain and was scared. I went to the hospital, sat for 6-8 hrs and went home, my bf had things to do, my child was hungry- I was fairly sure I’d live. I was tired, and angry, so thought I’d try again another day. But I didn’t as I’m terrified of hospitals now. So I ignored the pain. Days later Walking up the stairs at home nearly killed me I had to rest half way, by the time I got to the top I thought I was going to puke I rushed to the loo, but then felt the need to pee and had scary clots and a lot of blood loss. I’ve had miscarriages before and feared this was what was happening. The bleeding was light after that but didn’t stop. The pain got more and more unbearable.

The first time I went to a different hospital for about 6 hours. There was literally like no one else waiting, no one! but then women having babies arrived and got ushered in, we left as I was over it, they couldn’t tell me how much longer and I felt they didn’t take me seriously. My bf took me back a night or two later cause I couldn’t stop groaning and moaning and was so ill I felt like I was being poisoned.. but this time I had a note from my gp that looked at my history and said you have had a missed misscarriage I’m sure of it- go straight to emergency you could go septic any minute. I was like meh they won’t even let the dr see me. So he wrote a note saying I had complex history and needed emergency scan.

The triage nurse wouldn’t look at my note. They asked their questions, I couldn’t tell them when I got pregnant. They scoffed what do u mean u don’t know, I said I can’t recall. They said when was your last period, I said I don’t know, they said how many days is your cycle, I said I don’t know, they said are u even pregnant. And I said yes, they said let me guess some silly home pregnancy test. I tried to tell them I had done three, two at home one at the drs office but I recall they continued making fun of me for not knowing, until I told them I understood perfectly well how it all worked, I wasn’t stupid I just find periods disgusting and don’t pay attention to them as they aren’t the highlight of my month. And between 8-12 weeks.

But I absolutely knew I was pregnant and had it confirmed and why were we arguing this when if they read my letter they'd see it was confirmed and why I was here. I recall they refused to read it saying we don’t accept referrals from gps to emergency and it was up to them to make an assessment and they didn’t even think I was pregnant and I prob just had my period and should go home and get some rest.

I told them I had passed clots, they asked if I had soaked through so many pads in an hour and I mentally visualised the horror scene in my bathroom but answered no and was cut off again. The triage nurse said then I was fine and there was nothing to worry about. Heaps of girls bleed during pregnancy, it’s very normal.

And I said doubled over in pain that extreme nausea with every movement constant migraine and excruciating stabbing burning pain and passing large clots was not normal, that I had been in the other night gone home and it was worse and my doctor said I needed to be seen as he thought I was having a missed miscarriage again and could be going into septic shock.

The triage nurse said there was nothing wrong with me, someone that ill could not be sitting infront of them or endured the waiting room the 13 damn hours they made me wait although no one was there and then everyone that came in was seen before me until my partner complained around the 8-10 hr mark and they took my blood at the beginning and saw hormone levels were low- so obviously had presumed I wasn’t pregnant and left me.

At 13 hrs I said let’s go he complained and the triage nurse said oh you still here? Well yes we got your results (from the 8-10 hr check) checked and they are even lower-“  I was right, you absolutely can’t be pregnant”. I was so damn mad at this fool. Of course the numbers were dropping as my baby was dying or had died- I had wanted treatment to see if we could stop that from happening.  And if not, prevent me from dying too. Not be laughed at scolded and made to wait as punishment for arguing back and insisting I be seen.

I said I need a scan. They said do you have any idea how much these scans cost? They said I’m not about to waste government money, ordering you a scan I know you don’t need, you’re not pregnant, go home.

The next day I went to my dr got a private slip for a scan. I asked the lady to tell me, I said the baby’s dead isn’t it. mercifully, she said I’m sorry the baby died around 12 weeks. You need to go back to your Dr. I had emergency surgery, when I finally was so sick I had no choice or die.