"ED Psychiatric Related"

Im a young adult.

Ive been admitted to the hospital due to my mental health and having severe mental disorders such as Bipolar and Schizophrenia. I was repeatedly told by the CAMHS and CMHS team, my GP and a doctor from my previous admission to return if any of my symptoms were worse, which of course were happening because I believe I wasnt recieving proper treatment from either team and my GP's hands were tied.

I hadnt sleep for 4 days (yes 4 days straight, no little naps or anything) due to my mood symptoms messing with my sleep patterns (I get very severe mania and then very severe depression that both last over a week long- sometimes 3 weeks) and my psychotic symptoms (including paranoia and hallucinations) were also preventing me from sleeping and making me feel ill because my heart rate had been around and between 130 and 150 constantly since my body was panicking at seeing things and i was constantly having shakes and tremours.

I told the ED nurse my symptoms, my previous admissions and what the teams on campus told me to do. I felt I was met with dismissal. They then took my heart rate and saw it was fluctuating between 142 and 147 at the time, the monitor was also blaring as it normally does when someone is "tachycardic", I recall they looked at the monitor, looked at me who was still trembling, and then just noted it down.

They told me to go sit and I wasnt given an estimated waiting time. I was also previously told when I admit myself to ED and are experiencing psychotic symptoms, i should be automatically moved to a room off by the side of the ED as to not exacerbate my sypmtoms or cause distress to anyone else. This was not done until 35 minutes passed. I was told it should immediately happen when i present to ED and the nurses should have been trained for that (said by a practising doctor at the hospital who looked after me during my admission)

Another nurse took me after the 35 min and placed me in the aforementioned room. It was dark and 2 small sofas that were essentially falling apart. They knew at the time the dark exacerbated my psychotic symptoms yet did nothing about it.

This nurse told me someone would see me in 30 min -to an- hour. This did not happen. I was stuck in that room, having entered the hospital around 11:30pm and then voluntarily leaving at around 7:40am. This was because no one had come to see me in that time.

When i did go home, it took another 6 hours to finally pass out. Even then i only recieved around 3 hours sleep and i was then awake for another 2 days straight, still feeling incredibly ill and my heart rate still between 130 and 150. This continued until i reached the end of my mania period which was another 5 days (ontop of the admission from being sleepless in my mania phase for 4 days and some more) until i crashed down into my depression period where i was sleeping for around 18-22hrs a day and not able to function as my body was recovering from my manic period.

I was told this wouldnt happen when i raised my concerns, as this isnt the first time it had happened when i admitted myself to ED this time. Yet it did. They told me i would be given medication to stop this from worsening and to help me. None of this happened.

I think its truly disgusting how nurses, doctors and licensed professionals could seemingly allow and let this happen. 

I refuse to go back to the ED every time now because i have no faith in any of the people there based on my experience. 

I feel I get treated poorly, mocked and told I am faking.