"Pap smear gone wrong.."

I went to the doctor to get a pap smear. The doctor was male, he seemed to hesitate to give me a pap smear and said there was no nurse here to give it to me. I have had pap smears by male doctors before so I didn't see the problem, I said it would be fine if he did it, he said okay I have done hundreds, no thousands of pap smears.

I got up on the bed, and first thing he did was put a large amount of gel on me, which was "wiped" on - gross. Then he stuck his finger in me, I yelled out, and he said oh don't worry, that is just my finger. What the hell. He moved it around and then pulled it out and put the speculum in, he then took at least 20 mins getting the sample, back and forth to his desk, leaving me lying there with my legs open - it was horrible. He then tried to wipe off the gel, which was disgusting. I told him to stop. I left feeling very upset about it, especially the finger part.