"Distressed and confused by government closure of Barrett Adolescents Centre"

I've been admitted to the Barrett Adolescents Center for a couple of years. For a while I went backwards because of other patients giving me negative pointers in self-harm and suicide. But as the weeks went on I started moving forward with the help of another patient; My treatment and progress went up and down, but slowing I was moving forward onto discharge. Until late last year when the government were throwing around whether they should close the Barrett Adolescent Center. Then it seemed to me that everyone lost their minds, knowing a possibility that the time with the Barrett Adolescent Center was drawing to an end. Self Harm, Suicide Attempts, Panic, Fear filled the ward for months. As time went on it kind of settled, but with some new patients to ward, which eased my mind thinking if they were still admitting people the ward mustn't be closing. At the time I was flying forward and then returning to school for 3 to 4 full days. Then came the staffing changes, a number of the staff were moving or leaving for, I think, job security. Then along came the panic again, only this time it lasted for months without end. Without the comfort of staffing that I knew and loved, left with strangers thus it seemed setting everyone off for a very long time. Then my situation changed when my friend was moved. From happy to completely distraught in a matter of seconds. I couldn't go to school, I cried my self to sleep for a week. I am forever scarred for what I feel the media, Government and other patients have done to me.