"Hospital ER Stay for Anxiety"

Recently I went into a hospital after not having been there for over two years, and didn't get much help from the nurses nor the doctor. I had told them that since I was in my early teens (and get ready for a bit of backstory) I have had terrible anxiety attacks resulting from a traumatic event in that year, which itself was as I can describe, a horrible experience. I won't go into too much, but I will say that the whole ordeal since then has left me with psychosomatic symptoms of shallowness of breathing. It gets really frightening at points, and since it first started in 2007 to now, it has been getting harder and harder to live with. So much so, that it often brings me to holding onto knives contemplating suicide (I know I can never make the impact into my body with the knife itself, but more so hold on to it as a 'option', usually in tears and distress). Now as I spoke before of the hospital stay, what they have done in the past, whenever I go in there for my psychosomatic breathing and panic attacks, they tend to look me over a bit, make sure everything is as 'physically' even as they can get, and then after a while (often overnight) they send me out to the waiting room for my dad to pick me up. 

Now here is where I usually sigh in exasperation and annoyance, since I feel as if the hospital have not done anything to understand my physical symptoms caused by psychosomatic mental issues and trauma. Instead, they leave me be even though the feelings I have are a true hell on earth to experience. Now also note that I have been in and out of that ER ward over twenty times, I kid you not, for the same reason, same feelings, same story. And again and again, I get sent home rather than looked into.

Please, if there is a way, make hospitals more open to helping understand patients with psychosomatic symptoms. Remember too, on a closing note, that psychosomatic means, in case you may not know, a physical symptom (in my case shallow breathing, but the range is so vast) stemming from a mental illness.

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