"Rehab and transition"

I had been a client at Carinya House ran by Lives Lived Well for roughly 8 months. I arrived after my time in Kedesh rehabilitation program. I have been a drug and alcohol abuser since I was a teenager. Around 14 years later and I have now completed and graduated a few rehabs in my life as I've been attempting to better myself for a almost a decade, failing every time. I was predominantly a meth and alcohol user, though I used just about everything I could get my hands on. To tell a long story short, there is always a worse rock bottom. There is always a new level of pain waiting to be unlocked. If you've been in addiction long enough you know this. A dark place does not come close to describing where I was. 

I completed Kedesh rehabilitation towards the end of last year. Kedesh is a beautiful program with incredible staff and an approach I cannot fault. I believe I received everything I needed in my stay there. 

But I had completed Kedesh the year before and then relapsed so I knew that the 9 weeks plus the 4 week extension was not enough for me. I needed more time away from my toxic interpersonal relationships and self destructive behaviours. 

I applied for Carinya House, not knowing all too much about it and was actually pretty scared, having never left home besides rehab stays. 

But I quickly became friendly with the house coordinator that worked there and the other residents, they were all very friendly and recovery focused. 

The care and support I have received here is almost unparalleled. I consider myself an honest person and don't like to exaggerate the truth, no f****** around this place has literally helped me turn my life around. The staff working here have helped me help myself through every issue no matter how uncomfortable or triggering. I cannot praise this place enough. 

I used to deeply hate myself, hated everything about me, head to toe, inside and out. By the end of my use of drugs and alcohol i was losing control of myself and my actions and became afraid I would take my own life in an emotional state. I was very psychotic and was at risk of harming myself and others. At the time of writing this, I feel none of these things. I understand that I will be okay no matter what happens in my life. I am able to do anything I set my mind to. I am able to organise myself and create healthy routines and boundaries. 

I am surrounded by people who only want to see the best for me and I them. I am truly blessed today and I wouldnt change a thing... Well, maybe I would change a couple things haha. If anyone is reading this and wants to change but doesn't know how, please consider Carinya, Watershed, Kedesh and narcotics anonymous. These organisations have saved my life. Helped me save my own. We all deserve to feel genuine happiness and love, peacefulness and satisfaction. Give it a go, I promise you won't regret it