"Admission to hospital"

Was treated in hospital in Feb 2023 for legionella, staff and Doctors were very good and caring professionals as this was life threatening I am very thankful and can not praise them enough. Unfortunately I was admitted again for pneumonia and infection late 2023 on this occasion again appeared very much the same, unfortunately I developed a drug and infection induced delirium. Which on the discharge docs was said to be mild 

I remember next to nothing from the admission to a room until just before 1 am 3 days later when I felt that strange things were going on, became very annoyed and loud, I was convinced in my head that someone was going to hurt me I then spent the rest of night terrified  hiding behind the bed until someone opened the curtain around 5 am, in a blind panic hit every emergency button I could before realising all was ok, there was then talk about taking me to a psyche ward the problem from here is that the discharge notes say. 

"[The patient] also had a brief period of delirium in the setting of infection and use of opioid analgesia, which resolved with re-orientation strategies, cessation of opioids, and with IV ABx."

For me this was not brief, I felt that I was being judged by staff and others and apologised profusely for things that were beyond my control so much so that I went an admin area and requested to be discharged and sent home as I was scared to remain in the environment even though I was still very ill.

My partner called the hospital and they and a staff member convinced me I needed to stay. I continued to feel unsafe in the hospital for next few days until the evening before being discharged. The point for me is that this felt like a very real genuine danger to me and don't feel that the concerns were resolved through said re-orientation strategies. I never felt that I was in a safe space.. even now at home I find myself sleeping with a light on never in my life have I been afraid of the dark.

Again I am thankful for the treatment of my pneumonia, but feel I was harshly treated in terms of resolving the delirium issues I can not help but think that being in five different rooms/beds over six days may not have helped the issues.